Today is my brother-in-law's wedding.

A happy day.  A joyful day.  I am very happy that Jim and Ally are getting married.  I do not want to seem as if I am not.

However, my husband is the best man and thus, I get to spend very little time with him today.  Which sucks.  Because even though I love his family, I want to spend time with my best friend.  I want to share in his happiness up close, rather than from afar.  I do not get to sit by him at the wedding, I don't get to spend time with him between the wedding and the reception.  I do not get to eat by him.  In fact, between when the wedding starts and when the dance begins, I get to spend basically no time with him.  Why even go?  It's not my family.  Honestly, I don't mean that with my whole self, but a part of me is like that.

Additionally, both Jim and Ally were part of our wedding and I am nothing.  Not a reader, not an usherette, not a bridesmaid.  This feels hurtful to me.  To not be included.  However, the wedding party, on both sides, is composed more of friends than of family, which happens, but 20 years from now, who will they hang out with?  I don't pretend to know, but I do know that the majority of people my parents' age are not still friends with their wedding parties, unless they were composed of family.

This is a lot of angst, but I do not feel that I can discuss this with Kevin, because, well, it's his family.

It's been a while

Wow, it's been a long time since I posted.  Oh well.

Last night's Glee was awful.  It was overly dramatic and featured Kurt butchering "Music of the Night."  However, more importantly, it had some of the New Direction guys singing "The Rain in Spain"...as a rock song...it didn't work.  Sounded emo-punk rocky.  Gross.

Glee once again proved that they have no idea how schools actually work.  Supposedly, Puck needed to pass a test to pass one more class, in order to pass high school.  However, on the show, they had talked about him being behind in math and english and science.  These must be passed in order to graduate.  Do some research Glee writers.  This adds to the wonderful list of mistakes they have made about high school, including the fact that Will teaches Spanish without a teaching degree or a Spanish degree.  Um...no.