So, It's Almost Christmas...

I just want to go home and be.  But first, I have to make it through Christmas with the in-laws.  Where I don't know them and they don't know me.  They'll ask me the same questions that they asked at Thanksgiving and I will smile and nod and answer.

I love Kevin and I love his dad and his sister and her husband and her son and his brother and his fiance and Deb...

But his mom's family is weird and I'm just not comfortable with them.  Part of the problem is that Kevin doesn't have a really good relationship with his Grandma or Grandpa.  Not that they hate each other, just that he doesn't know them very well.  It's weird, because I can tell you so much about my grandparents.  It seems like it was always very segregated along the generation lines when he was growing up.

And I don't have anyone to say this to.  Because I can't tell him or it will make him uncomfortable.

It gives me anxiety and I'm tired of it.