Sympathy Cards

At my workplace, we send a sympathy card around the office and everyone signs it for any death in the family.  We send them to our business partners. All staff receive one for close deaths.  All staff, except me.

My grandmother died 3 months ago and I never received a card from the staff.  And now, every time I sign one, I think, what about me? Do I not matter?  And it shouldn't be a big deal.  It's just a card. But it hurts. And it effects my grief process.  Because every single time I sign one of those damn cards, I remember my grandma and how no one thought to comfort me after her death.  And most of these thoughts aren't their fault.  It's me, I know that I'm like this, but even still. One moment of comfort from a staff that I've know for 9 months(at the time) is all I am and was asking for.

And that's something my site is bad at.  They are bad at making me feel like my time is valuable, like I matter.  And it's the major reason that even though I am having bad luck with the job search, I will not work here again.  Because my managers don't value me.  They take advantage and treat me like less than the rest of the staff.